July 2011
2 posts
since I can’t sleep with you, your t-shirt and boxers will have to do.
You never love me when you’re sober.
June 2011
5 posts
BEYOND FRUSTRATED.
Set up an appointment and they would fucking mess it up just to make me come back again next week ! I hate going there in the first place and now I have to go back, and fill out more fucking paper works. I just needed to pick up a couple things but apparently I cant and have to wait. WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK ?! And now my phone’s glitching then it froze and now it won’t work)=...
Ever since that one night, I can’t stop thinking about it. It keeps replaying in my head and Im enjoying everything about it. I shouldn’t be doing this to myself though.As right as it feels, it’s also wrong. I hate how I’m willing to let you back in so easily, I need to put my walls back up but is it even possible ? I’ve already let you in. You seriously know...
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I can’t help it. My feelings stopped growing, but they surely are still there for you. They’ve never left and I don’t think they ever will. My family’s mad at you for breaking my heart twice, but I just refuse to be mad at you as well. I honestly do genuinely love you, and I feel as if you still do too, but you’re just so indecisive. No doubt about me wanting us back,...
May 2011
8 posts
I swear I thought I was fine, but I guess I was pretty messed up in order to be drunk texting you. Everything I said was true, but fuck I just wish I didn’t say it in the condition I was in. It feels good to know that you still love me and I got that assurance from you, but like we talked about. You can offer me more than I can offer you and in a way that isn’t right. So for now,...
I wish you werent so emotionally unstable. I wish you knew what you wanted. And lately, I’ve been wishing that you would’ve stayed. But the thing is,it’s only a wish.
This is gonna sound cliche but I really dont believe that happened. so I was sleeping and I dreamt that we were on the phone and you said “Oh, and I dont miss you” then my alarm went off and I woke up. As much as I wanna say I made that up , I didnt. Maybe it was a good thing for me to have that dream. Idono. after talking to my aunt, I realized shes right. If you didnt know how you...
Another one of those nights but fuck I don’t know what to feel. I guess you can say I’m mad again. I feel like I was nothing…
Truth Be Told,
These past couple days have just been an emotional rollercoaster for me. One day I’ll miss you, another day I’ll be ape shit furious at you, then I’ll be ok. I’ve said this before, and here I am saying it again. I love the fact that we’re still friends. I love that you call/text me to make sure that I’m ok and you’re still willing to listen to me when I...
Finally watched the “strangers,again” video and it hit me hard. I started busting out tears and realized what happened in that video is so relatable(?). No doubt about it that I miss you,and no doubt that I still love you,but I have to keep reminding myself that I can’t allow myself to drown in my heartache. I’m happy that you and I are still friends. I love how we can...
Im starting to believe youre emotionally unstable, and that you actually are unsure of what you want. I wish there were something I could do for you,but you need to figure things out for yourself. Idono what I can do besides just be here for you as a friend. This was your choice not mine. I miss you, but I cant get into this sadden phase like before. I thought I knew but youre confusion is...
Rant.
Its been about a week since we broke up and Ill admitt, I do miss you. Ive been doing so well,much better than how I thought Id be doing and Im proud of myself. Truth be told, Im angry at you. I feel as if I have every reason to be. Almost two years but youve managed to make it seem like nothing. Would I ever get back with you? As much as Id want to thats just something I can not do to myself, not...
April 2011
2 posts
No lie,
But that hurt my feelings. I was waiting to talk to you all day then when we finally talk our conversations going good yhen you ruin it by playing games. So I hangup, but I cant go back to sleep so I call you back. Trying to talk to you but youre too distracted so I just decide to hangup again. Whoop dee doo.
F'real Tho.
You already know how I feel about when you ignore my calls.You promised you wouldn’t do it anymore, but yet lately you have. Sometime’s it won’t go straight to voicemail or whatever, but still. Is it difficult to pick up your phone ? For a quick second, pick up and tell me you’re doing something, or with your friends or cousins, then I’ll leave you alone.A text...
March 2011
2 posts
"Fucking Perfect."
Idono what was up with you today, pushing me away and acting kind of like a dick. Seriously though. Am I doing something wrong or have I done something that’s been bothering you ? Tonight you’re going to your baby cousin’s birthday party, and at first you asked me to join you then right after you asked you said and I quote “Wait nevermind they don’t know...
If you wanna talk to me,that’s fine.Drunk text me? That’s cool too as long as you don’t cross the line. Calling me “babe” when you know I have a boyfriend isn’t cool or okay with me.You and I are just friends,and I did state that to you, then you tell me that you call all your “lady” friends “babe” then call me “babe” again...
February 2011
3 posts
Where do I even begin ? I shouldn’t have acted that way. The first 2-3 hours w/ you was just horrible. Went to Sadies,but after 5 minutes I just did not want to be there anymore. I know I fucked up,and I still feel horrible about it.I shouldn’t have freaked out while you were and I shouldn’t have yelled at you.I should’ve acted like a girlfriend to you and tried...
It's Valentine's Day,
and I couldn’t be more annoyed. Why do you continuously start fights w/ him?! It’s so fucking annoying,that I was about to get into a fight with you. You’re getting mad for pointless shit.UGH. Fuck today,fuck everything. G’bye.
F'real.
How are you gonna start a convo with me,ask me how I feel about it then not even continue the conversation? You’re too busy with your fucking PS3 that’s why.You’re on facebook ignoring me,but chatting with your cousin. Are you f’real? I’m bothered by what you started telling me, and now I’m just annoyed you’re not even answering. It seems like your games...
January 2011
5 posts
I’m starting to become tired of this.This is becoming a weekly thing. We make plans to hangout,but the night before you always go out with your cousins then flake on me the day we’re suppose to hang-out.I have to call and ask you if we’re still gonna hang-out,you haven’t even called or texted me telling me you can’t hang-out.This has been happening for the past...
I haven’t cried so hard like I did last night in so long.I haven’t felt so hurt for a while until last night.2 hours of deep talks.I understand where you’re coming from,trust me I do,but idono.You kept reassuring me that you love me and that you’re not gonna leave, but there’s a part of me that just doesn’t believe in what you say.I know you do love me,and I...
I hate how you nag on me about my grades but when I ask you to help me you won’t. I hate how you say you’ll always be here whenever I need you but whenever I need you most you’re never fucking around.I hate how you say you’ll do something for me,but completely turn around and do the fucking opposite.I dislike how you say a lot of things to me,but you’re actions hardly...
I feel like we’re falling apart.I feel like you’re finding happiness in other things besides me.I feel like we’re back to where we were before and like the last time maybe you’re thinking about leaving. I hope you won’t,I hope you stay around.I’m not gonna say sorry that I miss you b’cos I DO, and you can’t blame me for that.Idono what you’re...
aint that some shit.
can I just please have a stable home for once? Im tired of arguing about the problems we’re having,how we have no money and everything else.Maybe this is why I’d rather be out than stay home.This is a pretty messed up family.Brother’s a compulsive liar,mom’s working two jobs trying to find a third just to pay bills and get food on the table and a dad who has health issues...
October 2010
1 post
Sometimes.
I feel like I can’t do this.i feel like we may be starting to slowly drift again and it worries me.i dont want this to happen again. We’ve been doing so well and when i make you mad or we bicker at each other im scared old thoughts run through your mind.smh);
August 2010
1 post
HMPH.
I havent been on this blog for a while so here I go.Frisco bound starting today and I’m so sad that I won’t have time to really chill with anyone once I get back.I feel like I’ve hardly chilled with any of my girls this summer,but school’s around the corner so I’ll be seeing them daily.It makes me more upset knowing I won’t be able to see you.It’s not that...
July 2010
1 post
sometimes i want to strangle you -____-"
June 2010
7 posts
I don't want to become another girl you had a...
(via judychau)
Take A Bow.
After not seeing you for a couple weeks,I finally saw you again today and what I feared happened.I wanted to hang-out,but I knew if I did hang-out with you all my progress would be thrown out the window.At Ocala I was hoping to be done before you got there,but as I was about to leave there you were.I ran to Jeremy first to stall from saying hi to you,but hugging you,the feeling of being in your...
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i think you’s cute(;
Game Plan.
I’ve thought about it numerous times since I found out and I’ve set goals for myself. I’m gnna start moving on from you,and I think once I do I’ll feel a kabillion times better.I’m always gnna have a soft spot for you,and I think everyone knows it but I can’t do this anymore.I can’t be here waiting for something that’s not gnna happen.I’m...
Spring Cleaning.
About to delete all of our emails,but I’m going over them one last time before I do. ”I’m scared to get close b’cos whenever I get close to someone,they up & leave and I don’t want you to up and leave me like the rest of them before”
I sent that to you back in Novemeber.I opened up,told you all of my fears and dreams. I got too close,I should’ve seen...
I want to fucking shank you.
May 2010
8 posts
Seriously,
Fuck you.
Fuck,
I miss you again.
Bitch Moves.
I’m already upset that you cancelled going to prom with me,after I had everything planned out and got a dress but I’d be pissed off you don’t even hang out with me on prom night.I was suppose to go to Vegas for that weekend,but I denied it just to go to prom with you.People asked me to chill or do something that day,but I denied it too.If we don’t even kick it,then i...
So I’m kinda upset that we’re not going to prom anymore.Me and my crazy mind is making up some crazy shit like maybe you just don’t wanna go with me so you’re saying we’re not going anymore but you might just go with someone else.Idono,I’m being stupid and I know that won’t happen.I was so excited.I’m a girl,I love getting all dolled up.I got the...
Whoopie.
I don’t wanna play any games,I don’t wanna be led on.I know those aren’t your intensions,but I have to play it safe.I remember the first time I met you at Ocala on the basketball courts.I thought after that day I’d never see or hear from you again,but then we started getting close.I never would’ve thought that you’d be the guy I fell hardest for.I never thought...
i see you in every guy i know.i compare other guys...
hella giving me the cold shoulder or what ?
I’m happy with where you & I are right now,taking things slow,doing our thing,but what’s holding you back from us getting back together ? I feel a little suspicious and have my guard up,but I can’t assume things and think there’s another girl.Even though I’m not telling you,I’m really excited to be going to prom with you.You don’t understand how...
April 2010
18 posts
HMPH.
I miss you.I’m being strong and keeping my mind off you,but now that I know what’s going on I’m worrying.As much as I want us back,I can’t be selfish and push it.I just have to let things be,and when the times right,it’ll happen.Like you said,we’ll always love eachother,but I’m scared your feelings will change.If they do,then I’ll just have to deal...
"Once A Player,Always A Player"
You told me you used to be a player,I knew you used to be a player.Talking to more than one girl at a time,suddenly dropping one,basically everything a player does right ? You said you’re done being a player,but how do I know f’sure? I do believe you,but I just have to keep my guard up.A player will say anything to a girl to make her feel loved and special right ? He tells a...
UGHHH.
So my family & I are going to the lake tomorrow,and you were invited.I told you first thing in the morning so you could get all your shit done,and ask for the day off.You call me an hour ago and tell me you’re working.I’m getting fed up with them inviting you,you saying “maybe” then end up not coming at all.They’re expecting you to be there,they want you there.You...
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It seems like waiting is the only thing I can do for now.
if you want me,let me know.if you love me,let your...