I feel like we’re falling apart.I feel like you’re finding happiness in other things besides me.I feel like we’re back to where we were before and like the last time maybe you’re thinking about leaving. I hope you won’t,I hope you stay around.I’m not gonna say sorry that I miss you b’cos I DO, and you can’t blame me for that.Idono what you’re thinking,but I know you have thoughts on your mind. Earlier you said “I can’t take this anymore” b’cos I was in tears telling you I missed you asking you to come home to me, and that just hurt me. I’m not trying to have history repeat itself.Something hasn’t been feeling right lately,and I just wanna be happy.I want you to be happy.You’re saying we shouldn’t hangout this week b’cos I have prayer,but what can I do? That’s my family,and there’s where I should be. You make it seem like I wanted this to happen when I didn’t,not at all. I didn’t want my year to begin like this but it did and there’s nothing you and I could change about it.Like you said, shit happens.I just want to spend time with you.All we got was nearly 3 hours last night when we were suppose to spend the entire night together.I know that’s better than not seeing you at all,but this past week has just been tooo much and all I’ve wanted to do is spend some time with you. Instead I went to prayer and you hung-out with your cousins and ended up getting high AGAIN.I don’t understand.. You’re being a hypocrite.You say you dont like how your cousins’ are smoking so much,but yet you’re starting to do it once a week with them.You can’t tell me that it’s all your cousins fault b’cos it’s not.It’s your’s too.So many thoughts running through my mind, so many emotions running through my heart and I’m stuck here not knowing what to do.I know I made you mad and I highly irritated you earlier,and I appologized.I just hate knowing you’re mad and I’m not physically with you to try to make things better between us.