I haven’t cried so hard like I did last night in so long.I haven’t felt so hurt for a while until last night.2 hours of deep talks.I understand where you’re coming from,trust me I do,but idono.You kept reassuring me that you love me and that you’re not gonna leave, but there’s a part of me that just doesn’t believe in what you say.I know you do love me,and I know you won’t leave but idono.You told me that you still love her, but not in the way which makes you want to be with her instead of me.You told me that you’ll probably never get over her.She was your bestfriend and your first real relationship.Yes,I understand,but how do you think that makes me feel? LIKE SHIT. You compare me to her sometimes,you even cried infront of me when we first started dating when you found a picture of you and her.You reassure me that you don’t ever want her back,but how can I believe that? You also said our relationship is becoming less.You said that if we were to break up, it wouldn’t phase you badly b’cos you’re happy with your life,but I would go insane if we did. I would go insane,but for you to say our relationship isn’t important is like a huge slap in the face to me. I’m trying,but I’m guessing it isn’t good enough. Even though we became better before we went to sleep,I’m still hurt.I woke up and remembered what happened last night and wanted to cry. Later when you gave it more thought,you realized that our relationship is good,and that you’re happy,and you truly do love me.But that happened before and I don’t want history repeating itself.There’s so much more,but this is just one of those moments when I can’t even type it all out b’cos it’s just too much.