Finally watched the “strangers,again” video and it hit me hard. I started busting out tears and realized what happened in that video is so relatable(?). No doubt about it that I miss you,and no doubt that I still love you,but I have to keep reminding myself that I can’t allow myself to drown in my heartache. I’m happy that you and I are still friends. I love how we can still hang-out w/ no awkwardness and still talk to each other about anything and everything. It’s been about two weeks,and I’ve been doing pretty well. I’ve had my days and I know more of “those days” will come along, but I feel strong for not allowing myself to become weak. As for now, I just want to be single. Summer’s almost here and I just need to do me and have fun. The day I know I’ll hurt the most is on our two years, but that’s still a few months from now so I have time to prepare myself. One thing I will never do is call what we had a waste of time. I am forever grateful to have had you as my boyfriend and I’m still grateful to have you as just my friend. Everyone asks me “how can you still be his friend? isn’t it awkward? don’t you still love him? etc.” As my boyfriend or just as my friend, I’ll love you always. Our relationship was good, and the way we ended it wasn’t harsh or anything. Maybe things are just better this way. Idono,but lately with everything going on is making me miss you most. I just needed to vent and let this out.